I always try and stay positive and say I don’t mind having Cerebral palsy but you know what sometimes I really Hate having CP! I don’t like to have to explain to everyone that I’m normal but different you ways you can see and post importantly ways you CANNOT see! Please always think I don’t like to have to sit a chair truth is I don’t mind my wheelchair I actually love my wheelchair the stuff I don’t like not being able to go out with friends! Having to doubt if people who say they like me but really just say that because they feel bad for me or they are my friend because it’s makes them look good! I hate having to make plans months in advance to hug out with my two best friends when I know that they have friends who call them up and ask them if they want to go out and they say yes see you a couple hours! I hate having to worry about weather there friends know about me or I’m I the well kept secret friend who they don’t talk about so they don’t get teased or judged because their friends with the girl in a wheelchair! I hate having to only go out for a few hours because they have to study but in reality they just want to go hung out with their friends they aren’t any work! I hate to have to take other people with my friends to mall because I can’t help get myself in and in and out of a suv or a truck! I hate that my moms has to drop me off to hung out when I need my power wheelchair for independence and because it’s more comfortable! You want to know what I really want I want to go out and party with my friends just like every other 22 amount 23 girls does I want to have a true sleepover at someone’s else’s house not a family member house! I don’t always want to be told that I’m fine just the way I am because in reality sometimes I really dislike the person I am! Please don’t tell me I’m like everyone my age (normal) because I’m NOT! I hate having to wonder everyone night before I go to sleep if I’ll still have friends in the morning! I hate that people tell me stories when I text them for example I’m studying or hunging will my family when they are really hunging out with friends and don’t want me to bother them! I mainly wrote this post for people (friends to know how I really feel about things) This post may have surprise you but please know I’m not oblivious and trying to fool me with different things don’t work at it’s my heart so very bad!
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